[Goodbye Yesterday]

Steev, thanks for the reply. The 20k lost for the down payment was part of the 30k total that I lost over a six month period from August 2018 to February 2019. I have not placed a bet in 25 days and feel damn good about it! No more secrets or telling lies to hide my gambling from my Wife. I came clean on everything to her a month ago. 

When I say yesterday, I’m talking about dwelling on the past as a whole. I’m certainly in a better place than I was a month ago. Me and my wife budget our finances every two weeks together. She has a seperate account that savings go into. She is also on joint accounts with me. Things are looking up. I just have to learn to not dwell on the past and focus on today.