Thanks for the responses I’m glad to let my vulnerable side out and no that alot of us are in the same space together. Our brains can definitely be a rough place to be in at times. Today I had a super profound experience. My friend and I took along drive on the island to some remote beautiful spot. On my way back I came across a motorbike and a guy laying in the middle of the road. I thought the man was dead. I quickly stopped and ran to him with my anxiety on full tilt. He had fallen off was full of blood face first in the road. I have training working in Healthcare before. I got him safely off the road he was drenched in blood and semi concious. He didn’t no where he was. As I was asking him questions I did ask if he had anything to drink ect. He said not for 5 years I said so were in the same club hey. He winked at me and said I guess your my angel today. I cleaned him up and got him safe got an ambulance to come to the middle of nowhere. I quickly came out of my saddened state and felt like I had some purpose today that I was able to help this man without hesitation. I’m glad today happened to get me out of my feel sorry for myself state. Sometimes we need a good wake up call to get into the postives about life.