I’ve felt a bit of depression the last few days creeping in. I’m trying really hard to not go into it. I’ve been doing my stepwork and made plans with friends. I’ve been doing self care and took my dog into nature for a quiet walk but I’m still feeling a bit off. My stepmom was talking to me the other night and I guess it set off my thoughts about being on my own again. I’m trying everything I can to not feel lonliness. I think it’s just one of those feelings you can’t run from. I guess the thing I have to remeber is it is just that a feeling. Eventually it goes away and I move on with my day. The important thing is that I no how to handle the difficult feelings and emotions. The old me would find something to become addicted to in order to numb out the uncomfortable vulnerability. Today I just have to allow myself to go through the waves of whatever I’m going through like “normal” people do. Being a healthy recovering addict means protecting your emotional sobriety at all costs. Once that slips its game over. That’s how I ended up gambling. So I’m just going to keep doing what I have to do for myself and get through the rough days as well as the good in the best ways I can. I’m going to keep having gratitude everyday. For today I’m happy that I finished the baseboards in my place, I’m glad for my beautiful view of the ocean, I’m happy for the weekend I’m going to have with my bestfriends.
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