Ya thats why I won’t allow anyone new into my life right now. It takes to much focus off myself. Because I’m naturally drawn to helping others I have to really force myself to stay more isolated. I do see my friends every weekend but I’m not allowing for romantic relationships. I do have someone who works for my company trying to slither there way in but he just got out of a 11 year relationship around when me and my ex stopped seeing each other again so I’m not allowing anything to occur there. I dont need another heartache from someone not ready just looking to temporary self soothe lonliness. There’s no better recipe for relapse then being super vulnerable and getting involved with the wrong romantic relationships. I feel that my recovery and healing is working because the old me would of just rushed right into the bait and took it. I hated and still do dislike being alone but I no its needed to really get myself healed properly from my addictive patterns and trauma. I’m learning to not be the person that picks up stray dogs to adopt metaphorically speaking. One day at a time
