I’m sitting in an airport for the first time since covid started I have to say it makes me feel a bit normal for once. I’m so happy that I have the chance to get away for 5 days and I can actually afford to do it. My life isnt perfect but it has definitely got better for me on the financial front so I can actually live life. I was in this relentless work cycle and doing renovations on my my cottage these last few months I was just feeling burnt out and exhausted. Yesterday I got a surprise from my work to they gave me another raise and owed me some retro pay and tuition so that covers the cost of my trip and they gave me a gas card for completing my journeymen ticket hours so I’m really happy right now. I was able to afford to buy more concert tickets for when I get back to for my bestfriend and I. We both made a pack to start doing more and living life better this summer. We both were really depressed for along time. Not gambling through my breakup and chaotic living situations has made me appreciate things more. The therapy I’ve done every week has changed me for the better. I feel like the recovery I’m doing for myself is really helping me come out of my shell and being a better person. I’m more attentive to others and caring, I’m not stewing in depression, I’m able to get over the tough days alot faster when I have them, and I’m overall just happier. I’m eating super healthy, exercising alot and just overall looking after myself the way I should be. I don’t feel like I’m in an endless pit if despair just surviving which is a huge change for me. I vow to never let myself get back to what I was with gambling or addictive cycles again I will fight tooth and nail to work my recovery so I never end up like that again. It is alot of heavy work spiritually,mentally,physically and everything in between but it’s worth it to be happy. Life is not ment to just be survived its ment to me truly lived and thats what I’m going to do.
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