Losing it slowly: thanks for your reply /help
I’ve self-excluded from the Casino here
In the city that I live in…
About 7 years
Back I gambled $400 I had saved up
For an insurance bill that month…
I lost it gambling at the casino
And had to embarrass myself into asking
My parents if they would cover me….
I was lucky enough to
Win my money back
But my point
Is I realized I had a problem back then
So I got myself banned from the Casino …
Yes!
You’re so right about how easy it is
To join these on line sports sites…
You say a program called “Gamban”
Could help me to not have access to these sites?
Also –
I find I am easily influenced? Today I read about a story that really saddened me and made me feel really bad..
And a teacher
In a school where I worked at talked about
A lottery that’s being drawn tonight…
I get tired of being sensitive and “caving in“ from outside sources even if there is nothing wrong with me today???
Why did I have to spend $11 (OK, it’s not much but it still feeds the addiction and I don’t think that’s healthy)
Today
Because that teacher said something???
I want to be more resilient
And
I also
Think I want to understand that
Outside influence, I do not have to react upon it?? it is a choice and I should be making better choices because my gambling is out of control “my chooser is broken”so to speak…..
So today I may have failed -at least I didn’t spend money that I couldn’t afford to lose, but I don’t think it’s a good idea to be feeding the habit ?