I hear ya kin complacency is the worst place to reach. I never would of thought I’d do what I did either but here I am. As hard as this addiction was for me to have and go through I’m glad it happened. It forced me to see that I can never let my guard down to being an addict. It also made me work on myself more in depth this time. I’m so incredibly grateful that I have a second chance in life. Gambling may have made me lose money, but it almost made me lose who I am as a person completely. I’m glad my times were brief with gambling because I dont no if I would of been able to find myself again. I’m buy myself alot now and it’s hard but it’s also drama free which is so peaceful. The only drama that can be created is in my head and I’m trying everything I can to not stir crap up for myself. I’ve let go of needing to control my environment and had to say to myself if stuff doesn’t get done then it doesn’t get done and move on. That’s incredibly hard for me to surrender but it’s necessary in order for me to stay calm and collected in my life.
