another day free of gambling.
it is no surprise that what comes to my mind now is “what 8 years of addiction had done to me can’t be fixed in days or weeks”.
I need to be motivated to change and fix my life, but frankly, I am not, I am depressed and unmotivated.
taking small steps every day could help me in the long run, so today I forced myself to start dieting, no plan or target goal just diet. it is enough as a start. I hope I will force myself in the coming days to start walking daily and exercising 4 times a week, but now I am not in that mood yet. I have gained 20kg in two years of relapse I need like 5 months to lose all that additional weight.
I will not dream of a big change in my life in a short time, just I will force myself to fix what can be fixed, regardless of how small it is, but I hope small positive steps will accumulate into a big change with time.
I think “just do it” is my new slogan in life, if I will wait to my mood is better or until the time when I am motivated then think I will wait for a long time.