I had a rough day yesterday. My ex had come to help me move my trailer to my new place. And afterwards he told me he can’t help me with stuff anymore. He told me he’s become extremely suicidal and everytime he leaves from helping me he gets more depressed. It was hard to here him speak like that as he’s never been suicidal or talked in that way. I felt horrible for him but at the same time I had to realize I can’t fix or help him anymore its on him. I was grateful for his help the last few months but I could tell he wanted to be back together and was conflicted. I have to find other people who can help me which is really hard as nobody is reliable when I ask them for help but him. Anyways im just trying to hold myself together today the best I can and keep putting one foot in front of the other.
