Writing for accountability:
It’s been 3 days since I’ve gambled! I’ stoked because although it may not sound like something to celebrate, it’s huge for me. Aside from installing the software blockers on all my devices, I’ve taken my cash (not much) out of the bank and am carrying cash so I’m not tempted to send to gamble. I hate carrying cash BUT it works so for now, this is what I’ll do. I’m travelling for work and working on another island. I used to live here for some 20+ years and my daughter lives with my ex-husband here so I’ve been keeping busy visiting her and friends. She graduates highschool in 2 days and we are throwing her a huge party here so between working 8-9 hours a day, prepping food and decorations for thw party, and sleep…I’ve haven’t had much time to even think about gambling. I also know that I need whatever monies I have or will be receiving this friday after I get paid, to help pay for expenses for the party. I don’t want to be the parent who doesn’t pay for anything so that motivation is front and center right now. Feels good to not gamble. I have this app that tells you, based on your history of time spent playing and hours, how much days you go gamble free and how much money you save by NOT playing. So far it says I’m gamble free 3 days and saved $1400! Hoping I can keep the motivation going and resist the urges so I don’t need to reset the counter. Anyway, one day at time is all.