I know the feeling we win, it’s tough fighting it every day and you try to relax, live life and then it sneaks back up.on you again. I am not happy with myself today either, but you had 7 good days , which is a good start, so just keep building on it. Sometimes I’m not sure if its good to count the days or not. When I count the days I remember gambling, I think about the last time I played, and it brings back the desire. I want to think of my life in more than gamble free days most times, and dont want the highlight of my days to be the fact that I didn’t do something, I want to think about the things I did do. Right now it seems that my thoughts of my days are about not gambling and garbage day, and, sigh, it depresses me a bit. Today I will think about not gambling but more so, I will think about doing some gardening and organizing something in my house. I want to look back on today and think about something good that I did and not just about something bad I didnt do. It’s time to free myself from the chains in my mind. Do something worth remembering today and so will I.
