Thank you for the advice. I installed it on my son’s ipad last night. I think one way tonhelp me fight the urge is to post on here whenever I get that feeling. It’s crazy how much I think about playing. I need to rewire my brain but it’s gonna be a long time until I can shut that part out instantly. Thank you for the words of encouragement & good luck to you as well!
I know I have to come clean but I’m afraid. I don’t think he’ll leave me but I’ve disappointed him so mych already and I can’t bare to look at him knowing how much I’ve hurt him. I’m feeling a little optimistic now that I’ve installed the software on my other device. No access really helps! I also took out cash from my bank to take with me on my work trip so I’m not tempted, when I have down time in my hotel room, to send money to play. My daughter is graduating highschool and she lives with her father in the city I’m travelling to so there are a lot of things I can do to keep busy. Even taking my walking shoes to get some exercise in (which is great but it’s more to keep me occupied.) I am thankful for this forum. I need to hear from others who feel the way I do. I even had my husband read the thread for people who have addicted family members. I think it also helps that he reads the threads from addicts so he can get a better understanding of the issue and how the addiction works. Appreciate the words of encouragement as well. I will post again after I’ve come completely clean to him today. I’m sure I’ll need to get some thoughts out after that.