Day#10
2 digits again ” is a typical comment that I wrote many times, anyhow I hope this time will be just a step on the road to the 3 digits, I didn’t reach 3 digit number for 2 years.
@ Valvet,
thanks for your support and post, what you wrote about you and your son is inspiring, I wish you both all the best.
and to be honest with you, informing my family was always in the back of my head, but I was planning to tell them after sorting out this issue and after recovering financially, I always thought that ok I will save some money first and get my addiction under control and only then I will be in a good position to inform them so the pain and sadness that I will bring to them will be much less.
but that day never comes, I am realising I need their support now more than ever. having said that, still, I didn’t break it down to them yet, it is a really hard step to take, to be honest after this period of relapses and suffering that the gambling brought to me I grow a thick skin, the shame and loss of trust (on my side of the equation) is really secondary I can bear it, I have done what I have done and I deserve it, but the thought that by informing them I will bring all this pain and sadness to them is unbearable.
I know I have to do it but I need to do it slowly and wisely.
@ Maverick
thank you for the encouraging words, this is the only way that we have, we have to stand up and fight again, even if we are fighting something stronger than us, at least we have the courage to stand up and fight again, and the hope that we will finally win.
I hope all the best to you my friend, this is a tough addiction, but the stories of those who fight back and win this fight should encourage us to do the same. and there are many of those here in this forum, I can recall some members who really succeeded, you can read their posts here for example I-did-it or GRC and others as well. it is possible to do it. we should not stop trying.
- This reply was modified 4 years, 5 months ago by Dark Energy.