Hey nak311 your story sounds similar to mine. My gambling started 2 years ago as well for various reasons. I’m around the same age as you to so I get the devastating loss of being alone at our age from the addiction. My partner left to but in ny case it was a good thing. However I get that lonliness feeling but don’t let it take you out again as I’ve seen that happen many times to people. I’m glad to here your getting professional help and have been honest with the people in your life that’s the hardest part. If you haven’t already its super important to get yourself banned and put blockers up for those online casinos you played on that will help alot to not be able to relapse. It’s a hard road but I promise the healing part of this gets better in time. I was told many times in the last 10 years( I’m in recovery for susbstances to) to be alone for awhile to get healed from addiction because it’s a messy process to drag someone else into to. You got this and were here for you just keep writing and getting things out as we cant do this alone that’s for sure. Wishing you lots of strength.
