Richv, sounds like a very bumpy ride to get where you are today and it sounds like you are wanting to get off of the ride. Good. The best way to start addressing recovery is to admit that you have a problem, which you have and then remove the problem substance from your life. I am a big fan of blocks – not building blocks but blocks that stop you from gambling. If you play online then get gamban on your devices. If you go to the casino have yourself excluded from their premises so that if you are caught there, you can be arrested. Do what you can to help yourself out in the first weeks by restricting your behaviour any way you can. Remove immediate access to funds so that it is harder to act rashly. I’m sure you can think of a number of ways to block your behavior but be aware of the discomfort that you will feel. Your brain will try to stop at least one way to block so that it has an out. It’s too hard for it to quit right now so it will try to stop you from doing af least one. It will have good reasons, it always does. Do yourself a favor and dont listen to it. Stop your ability to gamble and the rest will come later. Hope that you heed this and have a good day.
