Glad you made it back, where others struggle too. Sorry to hear you weren’t able to fight the urge while abroad. What is important is you know you have fallen, now you know you have to pick yourself back up and fight the addiction.
I am fortunate that the state I live in does voluntary exclusion plans. If I am caught on their property, I can be arrested for criminal trespassing. I know there are probably ways around it but I do not want to know or even attempt. I am fighting to keep my
family in tact.
Keep on fighting. You can do this!