Hi Losingitslowly,
thank you for the reply, I have focused on paying debt and I paid it then I piled it up again. without money no urges with money the urges come.
this is the problem, I am living abroad I need money as a backup, you need to save money for a car for a better future, for emergency for marriage..etc and I can’t do it. I can’t save money because once I save some amount then at the first relapse I will lose it all, I have done this many times.
I don’t know what to do I am really in a miss, 2 years ago I got myself to 6 months free of gambling I was focused on paying debt then but once I start saving money I relapsed 12 times or more and piled debt again.
the problem is how to control money because, to be frank, we can work hard and get money but once we have it how to save it from the gamblers inside us.
I have tried to buy a good car as a protection for my money, end up selling it after six months, I have tried to invest, I cash it out, recently I have tried to buy gold better than keeping it as cash on my account it ends up now I have to sell it to continue this month.
it is a money control problem no money no urges but on the other hand no money no progress in life.
I manage millions in my work but I can’t manage hundreds in personal money.