Well, you are living up to your name. That was brutally honest. I’m not hearing that you are regretting going back into the casino, only that you are regretting losing control. It sounds like you plan on going back if you get more money. You need to face the fact that it doesnt matter if your plan works every time, some of the time or never. You are an addict and you will lose it all. I know how it feels to win. It’s not like I lost all of the time. I Have won some big jackpots and that is what kept me in the hole. The more you win the longer you play until it is all gone. It’s simple. You are addicted to the play, and it will never be enough. I used to play online for 8 to 12 hours straight, get a headache and still be unable to stop until it was all gone. The best advice is to not start. Any money you get is money you dont lose. Stop thinking about the money as a way to win more. It wont be the outcome that your gambling mind sets out. You will lose it all and maybe more. I’m not sure if anything that I can say will seep in when the fog has your brain hostage, but try to shake it out and start over. Perhaps you should go to a GA meeting. Look around the room and see how many rich, well adjusted gambling addicts walk into the room for help. If you are an addict it will be only to your detriment to continue.
