I’m writing this to give an honest update about my addiction. I got some money from unemployment on the 18th. It was a lump sum check due to backpay. I used that to pay off multiple people who I had borrowed from. Of course, due to me being tired of scraping by with scraps, I went back to the casino and tried my per trip / per visit strategy. I tweaked the strategy a bit in order to add a backup strategy to it. I ended up turning the 2 point something or 3 or 4 grand I had leftover from the unemployment check into 8800 in less than two weeks. I started going to the casino multiple times in a day to use the strategy. It worked every time, but even the times it didn’t work, the backup plan worked. I thought my luck was changing.
Anywho, in between this time, I went to a dealership to try and buy a gas saver so I could do Lyft/Uber as something for guarantee money. They told me my credit was too bad for a car loan. After that, I knew that was bad because now my plan to do something with the winnings went down the drain, as I knew it was a matter of time before the system would not work and cost me money.
Regardless, I continued the strategy. Fast forward, a few times, the strategy did not work, and it costed me thousands. Just yesterday, I ran into a time of it not working again, and instead if stopping, I grabbed 3600 more on top of what I had just lost to chase those losses and gambled it compulsively with no strategy. I had no idea what had gotten into me, as I was firing 300 to 1000 per hand. Of course, after a few minutes, all of that was gone. I barged out of the casino wondering why the heck I let myself do that. Why did I lose so much in one sitting betting recklessly after spending so much time and so many trips to win 80 dollars give or take for each visit.
Here I am, broke again. It’s my fault, as it always is. I’m not sure what to do but wait as time heals this. I still am not sure what to do for money, as currently the only option I have takes almost all day to make maybe 80 dollars if I’m fortunate (doing deliveries in a car that eats lots of gas). I don’t know if I can go back to that after making up to 200 per trip / per day type using the non guarantee strategy. Anywho, there’s your update. I feel like nothing.