Thanks to everyone who has posted and took time to lend a little encouragement or help. I’m still doing ok. My mind a few moments the other day where I was trying to rationalize gambling to allow for a bet. I can control the bet. If I just do one a day, I’ll be okay. I can win. Blah blah blah. It’s all a lie. You see I’m a sports bettor. That’s my addiction. Sports wagering has cost me so much money. Bankruptcy twice. Loss of trust from my wife. Not only the money but the time. The moments away from my family just to get my fix. The mood swings- the high when I win, the misery when I lose. The constantly checking of my phone to get a score. Spending my last dollar even though my family needs food or I need gas. All of those tough times have been a direct result of my gambling. So when my mind tried to rationalize making a sports wager, I really had to tell myself, if I could truly win and I could control my gambling why haven’t I done so? What would change this time? The answer is nothing. If I place that bet I’ll be right back at square one because I’m powerless over gambling. That’s the truth. I’m happy with that decision to not place the wager but I know there is still a lot of temptation ahead. Especially on payday. I know I need to stay closer to this site and lean on others for support, and vise versa.
Kataja- thanks for posting. I’m sorry to hear of your story but despite the tough situation you are in; you can still bounce back. You can still make life worth it again. Gambling will make it worse. Each day we gamble we set ourselves back. You can do this! Lets not gamble today! We will worry about tomorrow, tomorrow!
