Thanks kin always loved drew shes definitely an idol of mine.
I totally understand brenda01 the good ol making an ass out of u and me. Its the worst especially after you have time to process those amazing psychic abilities. I hate when I do that but it happens frequently in my life. I’m super hard on myself especially after this addiction. I have a horrible tendency to assume people think the worst of me especially my exes family and friends. I’m not stupid though I understand the judgement and automatic negative comments there going to say because that’s just what people do when they no someone they love is feeling hurt. But what I forget is that with time to process that stuff people eventually see the bigger picture and try to understand why people like us end up in an addiction like gambling. I do think about why we go to this place of assumption though and I feel it has to do with our brains learned hardwiring. We have so much to process on a daily basis that I think it’s just automatic. Our brains save energy by making assumptions.We go off past experience. So in new situations we’re just relaying these patterns or thoughts to that situation. It’s hard not to worry what others think of us either. We’re already in this horrible place of guilt and shame so its only natural to feel our self esteem rear It’s ugly head into our own unconscious thoughts. I myself am trying to find peace with myself to not care what others think of me. Really it doesn’t matter at the end of the day because nobody is living our life but us. I’ve been choosing to no longer listen to my inner dialoge because that voice is bad shit crazy lol.