[brenda01]

Ugh….today is one week since I blew thru sooo much money. While I haven’t felt any urge to gamble, I feel so sad today. I feel guilt setting in every day a little more than the day before. I feel so ugly inside.

I have let more people know about my addiction and each time I tell someone it is easier to say. The lump in my throat is still there, and the tears still well up in my eyes.

I feel like they think I am ridiculous. That this isn’t serious. Maybe this feeling is just in my head. I am usually a good read of people but hell I don’t know anymore. Wondering if I am just being paranoid…….