We win, I am glad that I can be of help to you at the same time I am managing my own struggles. I am looking at time that I could never have been gamble free in the past and can honestly say that it never would have happened had I not had effective blocks in place. I know that I have some self control or I would have been at a land based casino at some point in time, but I also know that I have serious impulse control issues that I have never addressed and will most likely need to do so. As for your purpose on life, that cannot always be discerned at a given point in time. I always believed that all the crap that I had to go through in life was for a purpose, building me into the person that I was and hopefully shaping others that I have mentored along the way. I have always tried to be there for others and will always be. I am known as mom at my work and am good at being there for people when they need me while at the same time not being there for my own child because of gambling. That has changed now and I feel more balanced with every passing day and hopefully you will too. Your fight is with your brain. It is not operating with your best intentions in mind so you will have to be suspicious of all that it leads you to do. Be cautious and be safe.
