Thanks so much for the really nice comments that means so much to me to read. I guess my experience with being in recovery for the last 10 years has already paved this path for me so I’m well versed it what it means to push for a healthy life. I just lost my way for awhile but I’m not willing to make that mistake again. I feel fortunate that at my age I get a second chance to make something better for myself so I’m not going to waste it. My mom died at 34 the same age I an now and she never got to experience life so I want to make sure that I can live the life she didnt get to now. I reached a point where I was sick and tired of not living so now I am even if I’m mostly doing it by myself. Today I went to the pool for the first time by myself I was always nervous to go anywhere where im exposes by myself. I had to get an oil change thats right beside the casino. I didn’t even bat an eyelash at the casino I new that the hottub was calling my name at the pool down the road well I waited for my car at the dealership. So today was an accomplishment for myself going into the pool by myself. I didn’t feel anxious or anything so I no my therapies working and insanely grateful for it. I’m grateful that I can be alone and not feel sad I’m actually starting to like it now
