Yea, I’ve had that similar issue with the problems with self-control when it comes to gambling. Several times when I felt like I was completely done with gambling due to the damage and pain from the losses, I would impulsively/compulsively go when I had some money with a vengeance to get my money back. Every single time I’ve lost, and even if I did win, I eventually lost. I live close to a cardroom that has my game of preference, but for me, it’s not about banning myself from every single casino/cardroom, I know it’s more about self-control. I’ve had lots of consecutive clean time in the past. I remember my self-control was so good at one point, I went to a casino with friends who wanted to go, and I didn’t play anything, because I knew the first bet would be stepping on another path to destruction. I am working on getting back to that. It is easier when I have a job and am living with more purpose. I am currently unemployed and questioning my purpose so it is hard. I know it (my purpose) is not gambling though. I’ve done so much damage these past few months, it’s ridiculous. I am just going to stay away, be patient, take opportunities that come my way that align with my healthy passions, and go from there. Thanks again @ Losingitslowly, a lot of what you share is so helpful, especially since it’s honest and not sugarcoated.
