@ Losingitslowly,
Thank you for your response. It’s crazy that you said what you did about free will. Not too long ago, I wrote down /expressed that my bad choices have nothing to do with God, and they are my own decisions.
I am currently battling with trying to give up gambling. I will be attending a virtual GA meeting in a bit later on tonight.
I am also battling with trying to keep a desire to live. I am quite fatigued, but I did want to acknowledge you and let you know that your response consisted of some great advice. Thank you for taking the time to write what you did. I am fighting to not give up against this addiction, because it is a life destroyer. It’s crazy that I know this but still can’t seem to give it up. Maybe it’s my greed. Maybe it’s me tired of being broke. Maybe it’s an emotional issue. Maybe it’s the false deception of me thinking I need the high. Who knows, but I am trying to not give up on life and beating this addiction/state.