I’ve had a really awesome couple days. I was really focused on self care for myself. My friend and I did a spa day with saunas and hot tubs yesterday and I also got my hair done for the first time in 2 1/2 years. I felt more like a woman should for the first time in along time. I’ve been feeling gruby and to masculine lately with my line of work so I feel pretty for the first time in along time. I wore a bikini for the first time to in about a year to and felt confident it was really nice. Today I did my step 4 with my sponsor and let go of my resentments from my relationship. We also discussed starting our new stepwork next weekend that’s tailored towards our culture. I ordered a program from the states thats called wellbriety that focuses on first nations culture that encompasses the 12 steps so I’m extremely excited to finally get to work that program. My step-dad raised me with his culture on reserves since I was a year old and my own bloodline is part Iroquois so its really cool that I can encompass my beliefs and spirtuality into my recovery. There’s not right or wrong way to do what works for you in my opinion. There’s many recovery avenues to take and I definitely prefer more of holistic approach. I’m still very involved with NA and AA to and unfortunately there’s no GA here for me but this forum is helping for that part. My counselor specializes in gambling addiction specifically though so thats a major help for me right now in my recovery journey from gambling addiction. Because Ive had many addictions and issues in my life I have alot of different things I’m trying to do to become healthier. I am more determined than I’ve ever been to be the best version I can for myself.
Today I’m grateful for doing my stepwork. I’m grateful for my awesome hairdresser for making me feel pretty again. And I’m grateful for looking after myself this weekend