Daniel drake, you are no worse than the best of us at the wrong time. You are able to gamble and so you do. The only reason I have not gambled in 15 days is that I CAN’T. I have so limited my access that I actually have no way of doing it. It is the only way when you are at your weakest and so you have to put some blocks in place. I am not sure what you can do, only you do. You have to do whatever it is, no matter how uncomfortable it makes you feel, to make sure you cant. I know that I put blocks in place but there and always something I could do to get around the blocks on my electronics and so I never had more than a few days clean. It made me feel hopeless if I knew that I couldn’t gamble at all so I never fixed the issue and I always failed. You have to overcome that feeling of despair that sits in your stomach and do whatever it takes to make sure you cant place a wager or put money online. If you are serious you will do it. Take the hard steps now and dont think that you are weak because you cant just stop on your own. We are addicts and addicts need help in the beginning. We need to be separated from the source of our addiction and that is what you need to work on. Strength and time will help you later.
