Thanks kin for your kind words. I dont like being negative but sometimes recovery can me a depressing process for awhile it comes it waves for me. I definitely yoyo in my emotions but thats to be expected since I was numbing myself for a few months straight.
Hey danieldrake1 I’m so glad you keep coming back and posting. You no that you have a problem and that you want to fix it. I definitely recommend trying some counseling and putting some barriers in place to be able to keep yourself from gambling
Today my ex decided to send me this message in the morning and he said here’s something positive for you.
“When we first find recovery, some of us feel shame or despair at calling ourselves “addicts” In the early days, we may be filled with both fear and hope as we struggle to find new meaning in our lives. The past may seem inescapable and overpowering. It may be hard to think of ourselves in any way other than the way we always have.
While memories of the past can serve as reminders of what’s waiting for us if we use again, they can also keep us stuck in a nightmare of shame and fear. Though it may be difficult to let go of those memories, each day in recovery can bring us that much farther away from our active addiction. Each day, we can find more to look forward to and less to punish ourselves for.
In recovery, all doors are open to us. We have many choices. Our new life is rich and full of promise. While we cannot forget the past, we don’t have to live in it. We can move on.”