Hi Dev,
Wow it had been a while. What’s ironic is my great friend passed away on July 7,2007. (7/7/7)
So I know he is checking up on me through you after reading your username. I am 30 days gamble free , and 42 days sober. No alcohol, drugs, caffeine , or sugar. I have just started a new role in insurance and I am also single again. I can say this is the happiest I have been in many years because I have no triggers to gamble or use. I have started therapy again and that is helping me maintain my sobriety and abstinence. I started reading a book called atomic habits and I have learned that in order to quit a bad habit you must associate it with something very unnatractive. So for me when I think of gambling, or substances, I think of disgust, sickening, and that’s not me. I don’t say, I don’t gamble anymore or use /drink anymore; I say- I am not a gambler, I am not a drinker. I have even been to parties with people using and drinking and turned it down. This is a life long battle and I take it one day at a time. Thank you for the message, it feels good to talk about how far I have come. 35 days ago I was fighting for my life, not sure if I would survive another day whether it be an over dose, or taking my own life. By the grace of god I am here, and I will inspire many with my story.. as long as you have hope, just a little bit of hope.. you can make it out of the hell hole of addiction. Love you all. God bless.