Ya its unfortunate I new along time ago I was screwed. Every person in both sides of my blood family and my step family that i grew up with are addicts right down to my great grandparents. I had no chance lol. And with addiction comes trauma. So yes it was inevitable. I hope that at least I can be the one that has a better life and stops everything young. The substances are long gone for me so now it’s this. I was hooked on exercise badly for along time to but part of me hopes I get that one back to a manageable place so at least I’m maintaining a healthy balance. I worry that shopping could start to rear it’s ugly head so I have to stay focused that I don’t get into that. And Usually men have been my go to as well I jump into a relationship as soon as I go into a break up but this time I’m not even tempted. Codependency is the worst drug of all in my life I have to avoid men like their a plague to me right now lol. Not that hard to do though as I work with all tradesmen and I am repulsed by them now because they are no longer good looking strong men to me there pains in my ass that whine and gossip all day about each other lol. All we can do is try and push through the genetic bs we were given. Break the cycle and show its possible.
