53 days clean. I have been testing and tempting my self in a weird way. I watch others lose/win money on tiktok (95% lose). For some reason that replaces my bordeum. It pops up and I watch but the weird thing is I don’t even care to do it. It’s kind of a constant reminder that no matter how big you win you can’t walk away. I’ve seen some people win massive amounts only to lose it all. That’s a good reminder fresh in my brain that it’s not about the money it’s about the action. Once I get to 90 days my habit will change and the less need for even watching others. I guess you can say it’s a form of sick compulsive gambling therapy. Lol
