I have completed 32 days Clean, but one harsh reality is I am still suffering with anxiety of my debt and the demon keep pushing illusion in my mind.
Today, I want to write about the “Illusion”; that we can try this or that strategy and can win a bit or lot as per capacity or capability.
– We all have won during our tenure of gambling, but this win is the ruthless strategy played by casino. Just an example – we deposit 10K, and somehow stay on winning streak and make it 50K. But, as soon as we reach a certain point we loose all in few seconds. And, than we try to directly deposit 50K to recover all win and looses. And, end up loosing single penny we used to have in our pocket.
– All houses give lucrative offers such as cashback, and payback points. This offers are not big deal for compulsive gambler like us, but it causes relapse to few of us. And, once we relapse game gets over.
– Except few casino’s, no one allow you to set bet limit or loosing limit.
– A common observation from various compulsive gamblers, whenever they go back to casino’s after a break of a month or two; they always win for the first time.
Apologies for this non-sense; just feel writing something so…posting this. There are lot more to add; but not feeling well.