Hey ujju, you sound like me with many things you are saying. What you said is literally the same thing that caused me to relapse. I told myself I would try to win about fifty dollars a day using a “strategy” that I felt would work most of the time if not all the time.
I told myself that even if the strategy did not work it would not cost me all of my money (but I knew in the back of my head that if I lost using the strategy, my compulsive and addictive personality (when it comes to gambling) would probably chase those losses and lose more).
Well, it happened, not only did my strategy not work, it didn’t work multiple times. In addition to that, I wasn’t able to walk away like I told myself to after losing using the strategy. I ended up chasing those losses. Trying to win fifty dollars each trip to the casino actually costed me thousands and has me with less than one hundred dollars to my name currently.
Don’t do it, it is the adversary trying to lure you in. No matter how good the strategy seems, it is not lose proof, because the casino and gambling games were designed to not be able to be beat by a strategy. Anything you can think of (even losing several hands/bets in a row) when it comes to a strategy not working can happen.
I had people from Gamblers Anonymous (years ago) mention systems/strategies not working, yet I still didn’t listen and I thought my strategies would work. Save yourself the trouble, pain, headaches, and funds and don’t be lured into trying the strategy. There is definitely other ways to make twenty dollars (or more) a day like some sort of job or tasks where the money will be for sure. Yes, it won’t be as easy, but it won’t be gambling (and it won’t encourage laziness and more laziness (which is another robber of a quality life)).