Hi welcome to this site. I just wanted to touch base with you as someone who has had a bad relapse to. I was clean and sober from drugs and alcohol for 8 years when I fell into gambling addiction 2years ago. I’ve been around addiction my entire life and I’ve watched hundreds of people go in and out of there addictions or find other ones since I’ve been in recovery. I also took a course to be a mental health and addiction support work Years ago so I no alot about it lol. Anyways the point I’m trying to get to is relapse happens and believe me I never thought I could get hooked on something like gambling. I actually contemplated trading last year but stopped myself out of lack of knowledge. Instead I blew a shit ton of money on online slots. I totally get the shame,guilt and lost feeling that comes with it. My husband just left because he doesn’t trust me and it hurts but I needed that to open my eyes to what destruction I’ve caused. Sometimes we dont realize that even with a behavior addiction we harm others because we’re so stuck in our own little world of shit. All I can say is be patient with yourself I’ve beat myself up and still do at times but it really can’t change the past. We have to move forward and forgive ourselves and realize we’re just humans in pain that need some help and proper guidance. And of course healthy coping mechanisms in life. I hope that you keep writing on here you’ll help others sharing your story and help yourself to talking about what’s going on with people that understand.
