Ohh how the urges are kicking in .. I am lying here in bed my cell phone right next to me .. I want to pick it up so bad and go online gambling.. people say when you get the urge to find something to occupy your mind .. I suffer from PTSD ,anxiety and depression .. I try to avoid people as much as possible.. I forgot about all the things I use to love to do .. all the drug use over the years has messed with my memory.. than people say you got to get to the root of the problem that there was trauma in my life that’s why I turned to gambling.. so here I am sitting in bed and going back to the first thing I can remember as a child.. and wow I was triggered right away.. and what was the first thing I wanted to do .. go online gambling..,Jesus this is going to be hard?
