Still gamble free. My husband left though this morning told me he can’t trust me. He said its not over but he needs space for awhile so he’s rented an apartment. I’m definitely hating myself more and more now. I hate addiction and what it does to people. It’s ruined my life more times than I can count. All I can do is move forward and keep trying to keep myself away from toxic behaviors. I didn’t want to be woth him anymore either it was to hard for me to try and look him in the eye and not feel shame. I hope that being apart will help me deal with my own shit on my own time so I dont feel rushed through my healing process. It’ll help big time to just be alone and process trauma and everything else that comes along with getting through an addiction. I wish I could turn back the clocks and fix everything that started me down a distrustful path bit I can’t. So here’s to another day gamble free and just moving on.
