Yes, I think I get what you are saying? It’s as though money has lost its real meaning – winning or losing its kind of the same? Is that what you mean? I think filling that void has long gone. I feel as though I am on auto pilot about gambling. I just have to do it. Win or lose. I dont care anymore. That’s why its so important to stop. life is going on around. We need to jump back in to reality. Otherwise its like being in some strange Scifi movie – reality has changed. Yes, I do work too and have a job. That keeps me sane I think!
