Hello,
Thank you Rising Phoenix.
Hi Similarshark, I was once there. I would even look for reasons to leave work. But, I can tell you, the longer you go without making that bet,the easier it gets and the urges eases up. It took me a while to open up to my family, they knew I was gambling, but had no idea I had a compulsive problem. But,they loved me enough to give me a second, third, …chance. I found that checking in on the forum daily really help to keep me on track, and allow me to discuss recovering without being judged. So checking in even on days you have nothing to share will assist with accountability. Well, I pray those urges eases up soon for you. Hang in there, the discomfort you are experiencing is worth the end result. Oh, and you have to replace those thoughts, and that time with something different. I started back working out (walking), keeping the grands overnight more often, and thrift shopping. Just a few things that I enjoy doing.
I am a “recovering” compulsive gambler, and I plan to get back up as many times as it takes to stay gamble free.