Hi Similarshar, well done on looking for help. Read the other stories here, you will see a lot that you will relat to. You will also see the success stories – what are they doing that you can apply to your own situation?
You will read how barriers can help – get yourself excluded from your usual gambling sites/venues. If you gamble online get a blocker for your devices so you can’t sign up at other sites. When it comes to your parents if they had their own gambling issues then they would certainly relate to your relapse. Normally I would suggest asking them to maybe hold the finances for a while. I will let you decde on that one – if they still have their own gambling issues that might not be such a good idea. They could still help with accountability though – knowing you can’t gamble secretly is a good deterrent.
Sorry to hear about your friend, my condolences. I don’t know how recently you broke up with your girlfriend – if it was recently then maybe come clean with her, show her by your actions how you are going to change things – words and promises won’t be enough.
You need to focus on YOU though, put the barreirs in place, fill your time and thoughts with other things. A variety of thigns so you are less likely to get hooked. By focussing on YOU you will be better placed for future relationships. Keep reading, keep posting, let us know the positive steps you are taking to make your next bet less likely.