Hello Siroko,
Its good to read that you have completed 3 days as clean. Just keep the guard On; don’t fall prey to the Illusion that we can ever win in Gambling.
Take baby steps to the recovery, believe me this is the toughest thing I am going through too. But we all have to be strong. We have to accept, that we have ruined things and we are the only one who is responsible to get things fine. But, it will take time and lot of patience. We are like Tortoise in this race, it will be slow but if we stick; we will be the Winner one day. (pain is temporary and glory is forever).