Hi thanks for the responses and support. Yes I’ve put blockers up and financial arrangements with my partner. The meetings on here however run while I’m in my course so I can’t manage those but I see my gambling counselor every week right now. I dont have any thoughts of gambling. I just am feeling the general repercussions of the mess I’ve made but I’m fortunate that I had put some finances aside to keep me afloat for awhile. The debts a different story all together.I haven’t figured out how to tackle that aspect yet other than trying my best to make all my payments. Anyways I try not to overwhelm myself with that part as I’m just trying to make it to the next day without pulling my hair out. Luckily my course is keeping my brain busy. I go to college come home study and repeat. Once I go back to work next month thats when my brain will start wandering as I’ll be in a mundane routine so thats where I’ll really need to find some good coping skills and other things to fill my time. Gyms have been closed because of covid but I think they’re reopening this week. I found that working out alot helped when I was in early recovery from substances so ill have to apply that again once I’m done school. Anyways thats where I’m at today.
