Hi sjc,
Sorry to hear you are having difficulty getting past Day 1. From reading other posts here, and my own experience, putting barriers in place to make it more difficult to gamble can be a great starting point.
Have you put any barriers in place to try and help be gamble-free? Related to this, if you haven’t done so yet, there are new members meetings on Mondays and Thursday which can be very helpful, there Charles can give you advice and suggest next steps including barrier options.