Hello Cruising247 & Daniel,
Hope you both doing great and going through the different stages in the recovery. Wish you best for that.
After Reading your post, I want to write about my situation/feelings too, here.
My emotions and inner strength have reached the saturation level, that I can’t continue myself with any process or recovery. In recovery journey of around 10 days, I already relapsed twice. I am broken, and hit the bottom already. I don’t know tomorrow I will have money to arrange food for my family or myself. I am back again on the stage where I will not have any financial loss anymore; because I don’t have any funds or source of fund which will be with me or in my reach.
I am near to a stage where I will loose myself mentally or physically; but as soon as my mind opts to finish myself physically “I get picture of people who loves me, who helps me during my life, the new family here and others”; and tell myself “NO” and update myself that there is lot of things and happiness I have to see/enjoy in my life.
There will be lot of pain which I will suffer, and my dear ones will suffer too because of my illness. But I have to stay strong and keep going whether it take months / years or decades.
Will keep going “One Day at a Time” and, slowly but gradually will break the Debt mountain too which is standing over my head.
There are no shortcuts to success or recovery, so now have to suffer/enjoy all stages till I get back to my normalcy.
Almighty help me with courage to keep standing.