Hello Folks,
Once again, I loose my motivation and strength; and fell to the prey. I forget the motive of One day at a Time.
Just 8 days in to recovery or we can say trying to be normal, I have been into two Relapses. Yesterday Night, I was not able to sleep just thinking abut debt and my future. Suddenly, I get refund from somewhere in one my e-wallets. And, as soon as it arrives; I don’t think twice “I just created a fake account and spend all that money to my gambling urge or try to get some money to pay to debt collectors.”
Feel so guilty for the same, I even forget wise words from my one my GT family member Daniel “He just said yesterday, that if we don’t stop the debt hole will keep increasing” still I played and played till I loose all.
But I understand that my trigger point is my huge debt not desire to play. So I have to start working on that.
Almighty please help me.