Thanks Charles for some Nice Suggestion.
Today is actual Day 4, I haven’t gambled. This might be because of 2 reasons
1. Inner Guilt
2. No access to funds
But the debt mountain is making me bleed from everywhere. I am totally dumb in respect to finance that how to cope with it. And, I assume this is the biggest problem with Gamblers like us. At one stage we get stucked and than start thinking of being normal.
At this platform, I want to confess that I have fetched money by all means (good or bad) from my friends and relatives. I feel, I am bundle of lie and have no respect within myself/family or friends. Seems lost everything.
Sometimes, I think of measures to finish myself; but next moment I realized “That I don’t want to die as coward; I want to be the best again”.
The road to normalcy for me will be very long, with my current capacity I assume it will take around 3-4 Years. Just want to pray from Almighty to give me guts so I didn’t get back to the black/foggy street again.