hey Cruising247,
I would like to thank you personally. i nearly did go and gamble that last 200$ but i read your message and it stopped me. it also reminded me that yes that last bit of money never ever does good anyway. so i left it in the drawer and went to work which will get me through the rest of today. i may struggle again tomorrow but for now, im good. this reminds me of a drug addiction where you want to stop but the brain is fighting against it. I find it so interesting how gambling can have this sort of hold on me, like im sort of craving a gambling session.
i feel like multiple times I wouldve normally caved in and did it but posting on this site daily gives me that little bit of power to want to do better so I guess its helping for now. 35 days free must be such a good feeling. its been a long time since ive been that long without gambling. hoping i can make it to that point as each day goes by. thanks for replying.
Kin, you explained it all exactly how im feeling. my brain is telling me lies and trying to trick me into falling back. im hoping it all calms down soon as I feel like i nearly lost a few times today. but im at work now getting through the rest of my day 3 so atleast Ill be at day 4 by the time i get home. thanks for the motivating words and taking the time to write. i hope you are doing well today