Thanks for commenting. im on day 3 now and still going through periods of time throughout the day that tell me to go give it one more try.
On my last gamble I took the last few hundred dollars out of my account and put it in my drawer so I can’t deposit anymore online. My brain keeps telling me i lost everything else so may aswell lose the rest. Holding strong so far but the thought is always there though.
Been a tough last few days. Its like I keep telling myself “i could win it all back off this last 200$” even though i lost thousands and couldn’t stop until i lost everything every other time. Its a sickening feeling I have about myself when it comes yo money. I work so hard for it but gamble it all away like it holds no value and I don’t realize it till it’s all gone.
So hard to understand why we do what we do snd how to stop it