Dec4,2021 – Day 22 of being gambling free. Lot of pain and agony these last few weeks. Tears shed, anger raged, emotions filled the room during every single conversation. My parents are still shell shocked from this. They desperately want me to recover from this. I do too.
One day at a time. I have had some urges but am able to keep the in check and distract myself with work. Trying to downsize and sell off the home to get some money so that I can pay off some of the high interest personal loans. What’s the point of struggling to live in a house if I can’t afford pay the monthly mortgage after paying down the monthly gambling debt payments.
Oh Lord give me the strength to keep my focus and continue to stay far far away from gambling. I have ruined my life enough and I want to start living my life as the way you intended for me. With honesty, integrity and virtuousness.