Hi IDidIt,
yes, I was feeling very low on that day, I hope that kind of days will be fewer in the future.
At this stage, I am so fragile the slightest thing can put me down. but things are getting better. last week got an unexpected salary increment and I am focusing more on work and GYM.
anyhow I know everything will get better in the future if I stayed away from gambling.
I like your idea of focusing on the process, not the goal. it makes sense.
to be honest. I was about to relapse, it was just a matter of time.
2 days ago I have re-activated my trading account the plan was to buy some crypto futures which is an ok thing to do if it is done without leverage. but it always starts with good intentions.
opening an account to buy some crypto coins without leverage, and it always ends with margin trading and futures trading with high leverage. then everything will spiral out of control to a degree where I was about to sell my car 3 times in the past 4 months to be able to trade more or to cover my expenses for the rest of the month. “thankfully I still have the Car”.
After reading your post and watching the video I have blocked my accounts again, your post and Charles’s post and going back to reading my old record woke me up. I know how this vicious cycle starts. If I started it again I will get the same result so NO I AM NOT GONNA DO IT THIS TIME.